朕早知道爱卿是蓝莓变的！ @[email protected]

@KateSourire 我感觉特别底层的那一类也没得选，稍微读过书受过教育能自立的小时候接触童话和言情剧的话就会：我自立，我想要，这（婚姻家庭生育）是我自己选的。俗称一女三吃还不自知。

早上睡醒在思考这个大占星。
学古占之前感觉是和现占两模两样的东西。
学完之后就不觉得是那么回事了，就是现占的理论框架有时候你又觉得很对劲，但是解释起来就不是那么回事了。

但我感觉自己整个人就是有种平静的疯感。
下午为了师弟的工略微social了一下，老大说我们 mice work进展实在太慢。
我心想我能进展很快但我不想啊，有必要push自己吗？这个博读得了无意趣。这不是能力问题，我做占星就是核动力驴一样。
据说我们实验室耗材经费会在半年内破产，劳务费会在明年七月破产。
我心想太好了，少在那边PUA我发个大文章，我将怒写一百篇古占公众号爽个够。

我真服了。上周莫名其妙扣了我5G流量，我去协商，退了我15话费，意思自己定流量包。今天订流量包发现停机了。
线上复机打不开，我以为剩一点点流量被限速了，出门去蹭网。并没有什么卵用，还被花蚊子咬了俩大包。

就是这种时候我觉得特别幸福啊！！！！！谁懂！！！！

其实我感觉我的路数比较像Deb，多少有点instinct leading，我提问的时候Deb也经常坦承你说的这个细节当时我就没注意啥的。Morgan就感觉是解码专家简直面面俱到啊！太牛逼了我觉得！

收到了Morgan对Session15的评价。
怎么说呢，Morgan真的一开始有种学长气质，就在Deb和Wade的耀眼光芒衬托之下显得特别接地气，你也不会期望他的技术有多么华丽。但是后面相处下来他真的好细节......很多我看不到的信息他都看得到。
而且有技术他是真的教你的！！！他每次批改作业那评语都特么写得比我的作业还长了。

@taki 是的！就是平静的疯感+稳定的情绪。

@taki 就已读乱回：去死了一会儿。

谷雨奶皮面膜怎么回事。我巴掌大的脸你竟也无法完全覆盖吗？受众是谁？

没想到horary之后开始追求的读物是炼金术

I have a lot to say, lol.

This course has left me with memories and insights I will carry for a long time.

One was a Q&A session with Wade — we all watched the stars together online. It felt unexpectedly romantic.

The stretch from Session 8 to 18 was tough. But through it, I learned where my limits lie — physically and mentally — and how to care for myself while still moving forward. That lesson has stayed with me far beyond astrology.

Around Session 8, my body began to fall behind. That was also when the informal chart discussions started, and I managed to attend two of them. In that month alone, I went through seven different sessions on London time — which meant every live class ran from 0 to 2AM in my time zone. It was… insane. Very quickly I became physically and mentally exhausted. My circadian rhythm collapsed, my executive functioning shut down, and my sensitivity spiked.

At that exact moment, we began linking planets and signs to things in everyday life. The learning curve suddenly felt steep and intimidating. I lost confidence. Every chart I touched filled me with hesitation, and I no longer dared to judge.

Then, around Session 18, everything suddenly clicked. The fog lifted. My instinct sharpened, and a clear, structured framework settled in my mind.

That was the moment I realized I had gained everything I dreamed of before coming here. And I cherish it — deeply.

Toward the end of the course, I suddenly saw how, at their core, neurodevelopment (my field of work) and astrology are much alike: both trace how specific starting conditions unfold into destiny within a particular structure of time and space. Two things that seem opposed share the same underlying path. That realization felt truly wondrous.

When I first sought out classical astrology, I pursued refined technique — prediction, judgment, the “correct” answer. Looking back now, this journey with STA has changed me.

I’ve come to see that the heart of it all is not prediction, but the act of attending to and discerning the question. Asking and answering become a dialogue of will and awareness between astrologer and querent; together we witness how a question takes shape, how it unfolds, and what kind of understanding is needed to meet it.

I also remember Deb’s case about the missing child. In class she vividly brought back the querent — the mother of the lost boy — her appearance, her expression, even the moment of their meeting. That kind of empathy, still alive after thirty years, pierced through the screen and struck me. When the querent clung to her visions, believing herself a medium and unable to hear any facts, it was empathy alone that allowed dialogue to happen.

We have lived through the “light and love” of the New Age, only to return, at last, to the austerity of technique. Yet what emerges is no longer a metaphysical mirage, but a true morning star.

Thank you to all the tutors, and to the entire community. This course has changed me, and I will carry it with me always.

提交了最后的课程作业，很遗憾不能保持继续满绩，因为犯了个蠢。