Each refusing to be saved, we could not save each other when young.

That doesn't change how sad I am, I said.
But you wound't want people to feel sad all time if you were me.
I was almost you once, and that's why I have allowed myself to make up this world to talk with you.Sadness one can live with, but sadness is a helpless garrison against the blindness of tragedy.……

Where Reasons End Yiyun Li