#TheRegular 里面提到了一种警察用来调节情绪的 regulator, 可以通过调整化学物质的释放让人在紧急关头保持冷静或者紧张。Ruth 一天中有 23 个小时会使用这种 regulator,在医生的建议下剩下的一个小时她会关掉 regulator,让自己的身体的自然调控重新接管。这一个小时对她来说是一天中最糟糕的一个小时,她会感到无助、困惑又绝望。
我现在偶尔会用 Endel 来帮助我集中注意力,真的很有效,我的大脑不再随时神游了,而是专注于眼前。但是在这个时间段里我会觉得自己像一个被控制的机器人,手在违背我的意志不断地在键盘上敲击。一个 session 结束后我会报复性地开始胡思乱想&浏览网页。
这种感觉就和书里描写的情况很像。我总觉得我的大脑需要那种神游,我不太想强迫它专注。
“She fights the impulse to turn on the Regulator. It’s not time yet. She has to give her body the necessary rest.
The Regulator, a collection of chips and circuitry embedded at the top of her spine, is tied into the limbic system and the major blood vessels into the brain. Like its namesake from mechanical and electrical engineering, it maintains the levels of dopamine, noradrenaline, serotonin, and other chemicals in the brain and in her bloodstream. It filters out the chemicals when there’s an excess and releases them when there’s a deficit.
And it obeys her will.
The implant allows a person control over her basic emotions: fear, disgust, joy, excitement, love. It’s mandatory for law enforcement officers, a way to minimize the effects of emotions on life-or-death decisions, a way to eliminate prejudice and irrationality.”
“She despises the raw state of her mind. Without the Regulator, she feels weak, confused, angry. Waves of despair wash over her, and everything appears in hopeless shades of gray. She wonders why she’s still alive.”