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我在毛象上写读书笔记的时候，好像并不是在针对书的内容写感悟，而是在记录读书这个行为的体验，比如我读到这里的时候想到了什么。这就好像我读意识流小说，书里写了什么我不管，我的意识只不过找到了一条可以攀附的线，然后我和书页同时自顾自地流。

我在推断的时候仿佛都是没什么根据地瞎推断，于是想起今天看的书里有一句话，是作者对下文的提示：When solid evidence exists, I present it. When there is less evidence, I make educated guesses.
...就觉得这个 educated 好帅气！受过教育的人讲话就算没什么根据也很不一样！

虽说我从精神上是反战的，但是战争一直存在到现在应该还是有一定的积极意义的。之前看到象友提到现在战争不像以前那样频繁了，导致大量的没正经工作没对象的底层人口无法被消耗，社会不稳定因素增加。我就想起我室友的脑洞，我们谈到越是低素质人口生育意愿越低，于是整个人口的素质渐渐降低，那人类是怎么发展到现在的。他说是不是会有一种机制在维持平衡，比如低素质人口好战，所以矛盾到一定的程度他们就会发起战争，消耗掉一部分低素质人口，然后世界又会回到和平。
当然以上只是脑洞，要探讨起来还有更多的脑洞…比如生育意愿，是有越穷越生这种说法，但是城市人口现在生育意愿低的原因之一就是没钱养孩子，所以也可能是城市化本身的问题。再然后我对军人的感情也很复杂，一是觉得他们保家卫国很值得尊敬，就像消防员一样，二是不明白到底怎样的人才会想要参加战争，确实接触过的军人啊教官啊素质都不高。战争真的打起来，消耗的只有低端人口吗？需要上前线的都是低端人口吗？什么是低端人口？

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»Und du? Warum liebst du mich?« unterbrach ich meinen Rechenschaftsbericht.
»Aus tausend Gründen und aus einem.«
»Laß, hören. Zuerst die tausend.«
»Das große Herz – der kleine Fuß – die schönen Augen – der glänzende Geist – das sanfte Lächeln – der scharfe Witz – die weiße Hand – die frauenhafte Würde – der wunderbare –«
»Halt ein! Das sollte so bis tausend fortgehen? Da sag' mir lieber den einen Grund.«
»Das ist auch einfacher, denn der eine in seiner Kraft und Unwiderstehlichkeit umfaßt die anderen alle. Ich lieb' dich, Martha, weil, – ich dich liebe. Darum.«
#DieWaffenNieder

我以为我在看反战小说，结果我在看谈恋爱

中文里的彩虹我知道两种叫法，“赤橙黄绿青蓝紫”，“赤橙黄绿蓝靛紫”，也就是说中国人可以在蓝色那里看出青蓝靛三个层次

When you look at a rainbow, you see discrete stripes of color, roughly like the drawing on the left side of figure 5-1. But in nature, a rainbow has no stripes—it’s a continuous spectrum of light, with wavelengths that range from approximately 400 to 750 nanometers. This spectrum has no borders or bands of any kind.
Why do you and I see stripes? Because we have mental concepts for colors like “Red,”“Orange,” and “Yellow.” Your brain automatically uses these concepts to group together the wavelengths in certain ranges of the spectrum, categorizing them as the same color. Your brain downplays the variations within each color category and magnifies the differences between the categories, causing you to perceive bands of color.

If you visit the Russian Google (images.google.ru) and search for the Russian word for rainbow, радуга, you’ll see that Russian drawings contain seven colors, not six: the Western blue stripe has been subdivided into light blue and dark blue, as in figure 7-2.
These pictures demonstrate that concepts of color are influenced by culture. In Russian culture, the colors синий (blue) and Голубой (sky blue to a Westerner) are different categories, as distinct as blue and green are to an American. This distinction is not due to inborn, structural differences in the visual system of Russians versus Americans, but to culture-specific, learned concepts of color. People raised in Russia are simply taught that light and dark blue are distinct colors with different names. These color concepts become wired into their brains, and so they perceive seven stripes.
#HowEmotionsAreMade

所以不同文化的人并不是用不同的词来“描述”同一种颜色，而是他们就能“看”到不同的颜色
以及才发现🌈和🏳️‍🌈只有六种颜色，中文里的彩虹和俄语一样也是七色的。

PPT 真难做，我做了一上午，一点也没有分心，只做了两页，还都是 introduction 贴别人的图

好喜欢放进微波炉叮一下/转一下这种说法

我渐渐怀疑我是一枚德吹

我：（拿出纸笔让小姑娘画画）
小姑娘：你画一个艾莎吧！
我：？
小姑娘：再画一个安娜！
我：？
小姑娘：还要一个雪宝！
我：？
小姑娘：王子 Kristoff!
（是时候好好学画画了 ）
（为什么全世界的小孩子都疯狂着迷冰雪奇缘，那不就是一个特别普通的迪士尼动画片吗）

今天跟我妈妈打电话，她说她梦见她哭着找妈妈，她觉得挺奇怪的。
我（？）在你做梦的当儿我这里真的有一个小姑娘在哭着找她妈妈。

室友的小破孩昨天来过夜，白天玩得好好的，一到晚上就哭着找妈妈，跟她说明天就可以见到妈妈她也听不懂，就撕心裂肺地又是哭又是尖叫，又是穿鞋又是打包的，看着她把东西一件一件往小书包里塞，她爸说：你都会自己打包东西了，我为你感到骄傲！
我好想一板砖拍死他
小破孩还哄不好，我小声嘘她跟她说大晚上的不要吵到别人，她马上就停下来，我拿东西逗她玩她就乐呵呵的，然后安静五分钟之后继续哭着找妈妈 断断续续哭了三个小时，什么都不管用，最后我把她骗到我的床上来跟我睡了 早上起来开开心心地吃华夫饼夹冰淇淋，吃完继续哭着找妈妈

上个星期大雪，气温骤降到零下好几度，结果今天突然就快二十度了，春天好像来了。

我发现我月经杯屡次失败的原因可能是因为我经期宫颈口特别特别低，所以我每次都把月经杯塞到阴道后穹了，经血就从旁边漏出来了…但是月经杯再放低一点就要硌着阴道口了，我决定下次试一试矮胖一点的 merula 了

@echoco 最后一段让我想起你老公和一一 我饿的时候虽然不一定会发脾气但是会烦躁，我一般是通过我烦躁了来发现我饿了的

“People who use their willpower seem to run out of it. Smokers who go without a cigarette for twenty-four hours are more likely to binge on ice cream. Drinkers who resist their favorite cocktail become physically weaker on a test of endurance. Perhaps most disturbingly, people who are on a diet are more likely to cheat on their spouse.
[...]
For the last fifteen years, he has been asking people to exert their willpower in the laboratory—turning down cookies, tuning out distractions, holding back their anger, and holding their arms in ice water. In study after study, no matter what task he used, people’s self-control deteriorated over time. A concentration task didn’t just lead to worse attention over time; it depleted physical strength. Controlling emotions didn’t just lead to emotional outbursts; it made people more willing to spend money on something they didn’t need. Resisting tempting sweets didn’t just trigger cravings for chocolate; it prompted procrastination.
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Self-control is an energy-expensive task for the brain [...] Low blood sugar levels turn out to predict a wide range of willpower failures, from giving up on a difficult test to lashing out at others when you’re angry. Gailliot, now a professor at Zirve University in Turkey, has found that people with low blood sugar are also more likely to rely on stereotypes and less likely to donate money to charity or help a stranger. It is as if running low on energy biases us to be the worst versions of ourselves. In contrast, giving participants a sugar boost turns them back into the best versions of themselves: more persistent and less impulsive; more thoughtful and less selfish.”

#TheWillpowerInstinct

微博上有人在说万一怀孕了怎么办，结果评论清一色都在回怎样怎样就不会怀孕，还有觉得提问人疑惑的……我觉得你们答非所问才疑惑吧！你们是都没有像我体验过两次短效避孕套漏服紧接着避孕套又破了，吃紧急避孕药后还要担惊受怕一个月吗！我吃避孕药三年，也就漏服过屈指可数的几次，避孕套也不会总破，但是这两件事就好死不死撞到一起去，我能不害怕吗？我以为女性在做了避孕措施之后还是会担心那个万一的概率是很正常的事情呢。何况是德国这种在这方面比较保守的国家，怀孕了可能就很难打下来了，我是担不起那个万一的。