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其实俺投这个期刊只是因为 ddl 差不多刚好在我能完成论文的时候而已，结果发现真的好适合，就我现在参考的这些个 paper 几乎都是 committee 里那帮人写的…我现在就是怕怕

草，读一个五年前的 paper，里面给了代码和数据的网址，我点进网址，里面赫然写着：
Coming soon!

看了几篇“放开就会医疗崩溃”的分析，观感是我国平时的医疗状况就比别国崩溃之后还要崩溃..

好烦呐，我在测我的程序要跑多久，结果昨天和今天测的时间差好多

讨厌回到家还要先把仿真跑起来再去洗澡。。

我讨厌每天十二点才回家…

淡淡的哭泣​​

代码里还有点小小问题，但我已经不想 implement 任何东西了，只想好好写论文…打算糊弄过去

沮丧，感觉这几天不修边幅得厉害，虽然穿了贵贵的巴宝莉大衣，但上面都是各种灰还有毛发…

Cutting off fundamental, curiosity-driven science is like eating the seed corn. We may have a little more to eat next winter, but what will we plant so we and our children will have enough to get through the winters to come?

不得不讲本书作者真的是对后代非常有责任心的…我真的就是做着好玩，没想过能有什么用，不过看来只要我自己觉得好玩就够了，有没有用是后人的事​​

Maxwell wasn’t thinking of radio, radar and television when he first scratched out the fundamental equations of electromagnet-ism; Newton wasn’t dreaming of space flight or communications satellites when he first understood the motion of the Moon; Roentgen wasn’t contemplating medical diagnosis when he investigated a penetrating radiation so mysterious he called it ‘X-rays’; Curie wasn’t thinking of cancer therapy when she painstakingly extracted minute amounts of radium from tons of pitchblende; Fleming wasn’t planning on saving the lives of millions with antibiotics when he noticed a circle free of bacteria around a growth of mould; Watson and Crick weren’t imagining the cure of genetic diseases when they puzzled over the X-ray diffractometry of DNA; Rowland and Molina weren’t planning to implicate CFCs in ozone depletion when they began studying the role of halogens in stratospheric photochemistry.

Basic research is where scientists are free to pursue their curiosity and interrogate Nature, not with any short-term practical end in view, but to seek knowledge for its own sake. Scientists of course have a vested interest in basic research. It’s what they like to do, in many cases why they became scientists in the first place. But it is in society’s interest to support such research. This is how the major discoveries that benefit humanity are largely made.

书里说到假设女王 1860 想造出电视机，并愿意大量投钱的话，那大概是不可能如愿的，因为前置的技术都还没有发明出来。事实上麦克斯韦方程组发现的时候，谁也不知道它能启发电波塔，通讯卫星，电视和雷达的发明。
所以，不能投钱然后指明必须发现什么技术，科学家们做不到，很可能前置技术还没有发现也根本不知要如何发现。我们应当广泛地探索，等待意想不到的结果的出现。
我就想到我读博的这个 funding 支持的 topic 其实跟我现在做的项目一毛钱关系也没有​​跟 funding body 做报告的时候必须要解释我为什么在做这些东西，都是教授帮我扯的谎，说我是在 explore，是意外的发现，是 creative works 所必须的，一大通一大通的。那边买账了。我教授真厉害​​

其实也不需要特别厉害的成就…有些论文里就是一个小小的 idea 就可以启发后人做出更厉害的东西，所以只要能做一点小小的东西就可以了​​

听说麦克斯韦结婚早但是没有孩子。我觉得如果我能做出些厉害成果，我就不在乎我有没有孩子，我的成果就是我的孩子，为啥要生个孩子然后寄希望于孩子能做出什么成就呢，我自己就行。知识造福千秋万代，孩子一百年后就死了，啥也不是。得真的很喜欢小孩子才生。