也是一只自由泳的小鸟
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一直听说每到春天大家就会去采 Bärlauch 做菜吃，所以心生向往。结果后来听说 Bärlauch 就是野大蒜的叶子，感到有点失望。后来又看到菜谱说 Bärlauch 是大家春天用来代替葱的，更加失望了。直到今天在超市买了点 Bärlauch 尝了一下…这完全就是葱嘛，我为什么不直接买葱 
今天图书馆来了一个看起来像流浪汉的女的，头发乱糟糟，衣服脏兮兮，口罩都用起球了，然后我很惊讶的是她借的是电影，而且是提前在网上预约了的，也就是说她一个流浪汉装扮的人 somehow 有 access to 电子设备…
虽然也不是没见过用智能手机的流浪汉但还是有点惊讶，而且感叹新冠真的是害人，现在图书馆不能接收读者进来挑选，只能上网预约，如果家里没有电脑或者没有家借书就困难好多…
我还送了她一个口罩 
两次失败之后我终于做成了 Q 弹而不是松松散散的肉丸！超级兴奋地给室友尝，并且介绍了一下秘诀：
关键就在于加盐，盐可以促进肉里的蛋白质析出，形成有粘性的胶体，就把肉结合在一起啦*！这和做面条的时候加一点盐可以让面条更筋道大概是一样的。
室友：你为什么不加一点吉利丁？
我：？
室友：吉利丁就是动物明胶，一般是从猪肉里提取的蛋白，听起来和你说的很像，你下次加一点说不定会更 Q 弹。
我：（？靠他说得好有道理我决定下次试一试）
于是我又回顾了一遍《亲爱的L》 
还是上次的进度
我村里刚通网吗，五宝和张辛苑什么时候在一起的 
#HowEmotionsAreMade
关于为什么女性杀人判刑更重：
The legal system has a standard called the reasonable person who represents the norms of society, that is, the social reality within your culture. Defendants are measured against this standard. Consider the legal argument at the heart of the heat-of-passion defense: would a reasonable person have committed the same killing if he’d been similarly provoked without a chance to cool off ?
The standard of the reasonable person, and the social norms behind it, is not merely reflected in the law—it is created by the law. It is a way of saying, “Here is what we expect a human person to act like, and we will punish you if you don’t conform.”
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A legal standard based on emotion stereotypes is especially problematic for the equitable treatment of men and women. The prevailing belief in many cultures is that women are more emotional and empathic, whereas men are more stoic and analytical.
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Take a moment and reflect on your own emotions. Do you tend to feel things intensely or more moderately? When we ask these types of questions in my lab to male and female test subjects—to describe their feelings from memory—the women report feeling more emotion than the men do on average. That is, the women believe they are more emotional than men, and the men agree. The one exception is anger, as subjects believe that men are angrier. However, when the same people record their emotional experiences as they occur in everyday life, there are no sex differences. Some men and women are very emotional, and some are not. Likewise, the female brain is not hardwired for emotion or empathy, and the male brain is not hardwired for stoicism or rationality.
Where do these gender stereotypes come from? In the United States at least, women routinely “express” more emotion when compared to men. For example, women move their facial muscles more when watching films than men do, but women don’t report more intense experiences of emotion while watching. This finding, if nothing else, might explain why the stereotypes of the stoic man and the emotional woman leak into the courtroom and have a significant influence on judges and juries.
Because of these stereotypes, heat-of-passion defenses—and legal proceedings in general—are often applied differently to male versus female defendants. Consider two murder cases that are pretty similar except for the sex of the defendant. In the first case, a man named Robert Elliott was convicted of killing his brother, allegedly because of “extreme emotional disturbance” that included “an overwhelming fear of his brother.” The jury found him guilty of murder but the decision was overturned by the Supreme Court of Connecticut, citing that Elliott’s “intense feelings” about his brother overwhelmed his “self-control” and “reason.” In the second case, a woman named Judy Norman killed her husband after he had systematically beaten and abused her for years. The Supreme Court of North Carolina rejected the defense’s claim that Norman was acting in self-defense out of “a reasonable fear of imminent death or great bodily harm,” and she remained convicted of voluntary manslaughter.
These two cases match several stereotypes about emotion in men versus women. Anger is stereotypically normal for men because they are supposed to be aggressors. Women are supposed to be victims, and good victims shouldn’t become angry; they’re supposed to be afraid. Women are punished for expressing anger.
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In courtrooms, angry women like Ms. Norman lose their liberty. In fact, in domestic violence cases, men who kill get shorter and lighter sentences, and are charged with less serious crimes, than are women who kill their intimate partners. A murderous husband is just acting like a stereotypical husband, but wives who kill are not acting like typical wives, and therefore they are rarely exonerated.
悲报，昨天晚上睡觉前看月经差不多走了，就一边刷牙一边煮月经杯，结果刷完牙之后就把锅忘在灶上去睡觉了，今早起来才想起，月经杯煮穿了，没起火真的是太好了。还是应该买一个专门消毒的配件。
（之前也有一次煮意面，在锅里烧水结果忘了，我正在床上玩耍的时候听到噼里啪啦声，进厨房才看到是盐颗粒在锅里跳跃…）
刚刚看到汉字“口”，就给室友解释了一下含义，他恍然大悟：难怪有的表情里会有这样的一个字！这对我来说就是一个正方形而已。
我：＼(;´口｀)/这就是你们德国人看不懂颜文字的原因吗
珍珠奶茶很早就在德国流行过，后来突然消失了，不知道为什么，听有的德国人说是有的年轻人会吸珍珠到处吐，很不卫生。我当时听了大惊失色。然后我他妈刚刚真的见到三个傻逼德国青年互相往对方身上吐珍珠。
（也有可能是当年 RWTH 做了个研究说珍珠含有致癌物，但是前两年又辟谣了）
我还在哭。我真的很喜欢哭，很需要哭，所有的情绪到极致的时候都可以用哭表达出来，激动地哭，悲伤地哭，感动得哭，害怕得哭，愤怒的时候也可以哭。
https://how-emotions-are-made.com/notes/Benefits_of_crying
我没有勇气让另一个人承受我所承受的东西，即使我偶尔也会觉得自己并没有过得很不好，可能是我阈值太低，可能我的孩子会比我更勇敢。
想到这里我忍不住哭了出来，这些困惑和情绪波动都是月经和生育能力带来的，刚刚在书里读到 emotional granularity, the phenomenon that some people construct finer-grained emotional experiences than others do. People who make highly granular experiences are emotion experts: they issue predictions and construct instances of emotion that are finely tailored to fit each specific situation. 可能这就是我们这种来月经的人必须要承受的礼物和诅咒。
之前看到一个新闻说是一个老板主动降薪给公司员工涨薪，所以员工们的幸福度都很高，以前一个公司一年新生儿四个，现在一年四十个。
我真的是很震惊。要是社会环境好一点生育成本低的话我就不会有那么大的心理负担了。我生孩子最大的阻碍就是怕孩子不喜欢这个世界又没有后悔药吃。但凡这个世界可爱一点我都会更有勇气带一个新生命来看它。
不知道是不是前几天泡面螺狮粉吃多了，这几天口腔有点溃疡，还总好不了 
平时我口腔溃疡都是含三十秒漱口水第二天就好了的。
以前我妈老说我声音小，听不见我说话，但是我跟朋友之间讲话就非常顺利，没有人抱怨过，所以我觉得是我妈的问题。直到我二十多岁出国了遇到了那个后来我绝交了的女生，跟她说话的时候她总让我重复，并且一脸不可置信地看着我：你说话声音怎么那么小啊？
到底是谁的问题
是不是德国人耳朵就是不太行才会有这种奇怪的耳机，每次我室友看视频我都不知道他为什么戴着那个耳机，我隔老远都听得见耳机里传来的声音。有的时候他把耳机递给我想给我分享一个东西，我都会首先把耳机扔出去，因为一靠近耳朵就会吵到我…
我的蓝牙耳机又在犯傻了，我一点音乐播放它马上给我开到最大音量，吓得我要把耳机扔出去的程度，然后我暂停再重新播放才会恢复正常音量。
结合它最小音量也很大的特点，我大胆猜测它就是要把我搞聋。
说真的耳机你就好好当个耳机，我播什么你就放什么得了，被整什么智能智能的，到处出问题。
（顺便有人推荐不自作聪明的蓝牙耳机吗？如果这耳机还能退我就退了…）
